Down in the dumps!


Do you ever have them days or weeks where you just can’t be bothered but put on a fake smile and act like everything’s ok? Well, that’s been me lately!  I have little if no motivation at all and the worst thing is i don’t know why… Or maybe i do and rather not talk about it therefore locking it all up inside making me feel down and depressed.

I’d always recommend talking to someone if you feel down in the dumps but i’m a hypocrite! We all are but might not realise it at the time. I said in a previous post i wanted some me time to get away and chill out, if i’m totally honest this hasn’t happened that much. I’ve decided i need to really try to make this happen but i’ve said this all before.


I once watched  a movie called  – Ferris Bueller’s Day Off and in that he says……

Life moves pretty fast if You don’t stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it.

This is how i’m feeling right now and i’m sure many others do! Life is moving so fast and i’m on a daily routine that needs to be broken and injected with some excitement and fun….

Sorry i’ve not posted in a while but i refuse to just make up the numbers and would rather post what matters to me and others.



We All Have Split Personalities…


i’ve recently come to the conclusion that 99.9% of people have split personalities, you might not think so BUT!  Do you ever catch yourself answering the phone in a different tone of voice or while talking to a member of staff or management at work? I do and i’m not ashamed to say i do, i can’t help it…

I turn into a posh idiot and put on this pathetic voice that sounds like i’m from a place on the world map that doesn’t exist !!!!! It’s not just me, i’ve been to the bank, shops, doctors, you name it? People always act and talk different, WHY!!! why do we do it? You might be sat reading this thinking “ well i don’t, i’m the same all the time “ Hmmm maybe your that 1% ?

I know when i’ve picked up the phone to someone of importance i turn into this upgraded version of me but for some reason i can’t stop it? I’d love to be just me but would others like that? Are we all trying to impress, painting a picture of the person we want to be ? I don’t know!!!!

Lets all be honest ? Is that you ^^^^


Spontaneous Me Failed!!!!!

Not even sure i can bring myself to make this blog post!

Cold, Tired and hungry. What a complete washout.



I got a phone call late friday evening from my brother asking if i’d like to take a road trip? Always up for anything spontaneous i replied “yes” I soooo wish i thought through this decision. In fact now i’m sat here thinking about it i’d say it was the worst decision i’ve ever made. “Ok maybe thats an exaggeration“ but it was a shi! decision on my part.

Brother picks me up at 1pm, i’m thinking ohhh we can’t be going far setting of this late CAN WE? errr, almost three hours later we arrive in northumberland, rain is pouring down, misty skies, nowhere to park, no idea what we’re doing, no campsite no fu!*ing  WAYYYYY ……..

I asked not very politely what the………. are we doing? “ Brother “ Ohhh we’ll park in this layby and take a walk and find somewhere to camp. Sounds fun “ NOT!!!” We must of walked five miles in total, my feet said so because i had blisters 😦 owww poor me…

Back in the car we drove around kielder forest, It’s the largest man-made woodland in England so as you can imagine this wasn’t a little drive,  just another hour wasted.

We finally found somewhere to park and both trekked into the vast forest with a face like thunder!!!!!! “Well, i wasn’t happy what do you expect?? ”

At this point the weather was getting worse and all i wanted was to find somewhere to pitch up and get warm, as we walked through the forest it got much darker and we soon had to make a decision as we were losing light. After another hour of messing around i said bollox to this were camping here and so we did.


That night it never Stopped raining, i just wanted to go to sleep so tomorrow would come faster 😉 Was never going to happen the rain and wind battered us all night, we couldn’t get warm and we couldn’t cook food as everything was so wet, it was true survival “  i didn’t come to survive i was expecting more Ha! “ miserable i know 🙂 “

The next day we woke to ………………. RAIN

We packed up and headed to the car and had a drive about in the hope i could get the camera out.



I think the moral of this story is…… Spontaneous me failed!!!!! 🙂 Nighty Night zzzz



Have Some Me Time

Ever feel like you need to escape? Escape from Life, Family, Work etc? I’ve set myself a goal that once a month i’ll take a drive on my own into a place where you could hear a pin drop. Why? Well, i need to start breaking life into manageable portions. Lately i’m feeling stressed why i don’t even know? Maybe it’s because i’m trying to juggle life in general and have little time to think of what i’m actually doing.

I hate to moan because there is always someone worse off than yourself and my problems are nothing compared to some, in saying that there “my“ problems and to me that’s huge.

All i’m asking for is some “Me time“ away from everything and everyone so i can clear my head and return with a better understanding of my next move in life.

Life moves so fast and i hate routine, i like the spontaneous stuff where you don’t need to think, i like the not knowing!!

We all know life isn’t like that and it does take planing. To plan effectively you need to think clearly and to do that you need some  “Me time”.


I started my escape today, i travelled to the coast to a deserted beach where the only things were over head. It was stunning, nothing in sight and the only sound was waves lapping up on the shore.




Why not join me and you yourself take time away from life and all the crap that surrounds it and have some “Me time”